Spring break was absolutely amazing, it was so nice to get away. Even better, my amazing program director sat down with me for like an hour and a half to ease the pain of planning!! I feel so lucky to be a part of this movement! I mean we are making history, (obviously that involves more than TFA) and I don’t know what could be more exciting! I’m really happy the year is almost over and I absolutely cannot wait for next year! I can’t wait to have my own place and not live an hour away from work lol. I definitely want to be more organized next year, I think that’s what is really holding back. I can’t wait to have my life back – my family, friends, and hobbies!! Yes teachers are people too and should definitely have things outside of work to allow themselves to be real people. I’m looking forward to growing more and becoming a better person! This year I felt very lost because it’s been such a turbulent year and I really shut people out of my life but even the darkest moments lead to light. I learned that people who truly love you will always love you and will always be there for you no matter what. Moreover, you should allow them to be there for you, especially during the difficult times because they want to be there for you.
So this whole year has been such an emotional roller coaster, constantly feeling like I’m not doing my kids justice, and that they are not learning anything but I guess all great achievements take time right? Well I’m excited to say that two of my students who were complete non-readers in the beginning of the year can now read books on a level C by themselves!! yay!! They are so incredibly amazing!!! I love my job, I can’t believe that I am 22 and living my dream. I am doing fulfilling and meaningful work that really matters and I have wonderful people in my life! Even better, I love being at the TFA office, it is such a place of great energy. I must say that I certainly understand the criticisms people have of TFA but what I would like to say is for all the critics, people walk into the schools we work in first. Yah it is an incredibly steep learning curve but everyone I know works ridiculously hard to make sure that we are meeting our students needs. Not to mention, TFA has accumulated so many resources over the years, it is literally a network of great people all working incredibly hard to make the world a better place. This is pure activism, and activism in the strongest form I have seen from my limited experience.
I love life! I’m in a good place right now even though it was a rough day. I feel like this experience has definitely made me a much stronger person and I can’t wait to see the growth we make next year when I have a clearer vision of what I want for my kids. I pray that if I work really hard over the summer, since I’ll have most of the same kids again, we can make 2 years of growth! Ambitious? Yes!!! Possible? Yess! I am really looking forward to a new beginning!
For anyone interested, teach like your hair is on fire, is one of the most amazing books I have ever read and definitely gave me a lot of perspective as well as concrete advice!
I think another important lesson I’ve learned through this experience is to just trust yourself more than others. People might try to discourage you sometimes, but it’s up to us to take as much wisdom from it possible and still try the impossible – that is the only way we can continue to move forward. We must act as agents of social change and continue to push the envelope and do everything we deem impossible to continue growing and making the world a better place!! NO matter what happens, I am determined to do everything in my power to become a good teacher!!! You get knocked down so many times, that you eventually learn that it really is about how you bounce back instead of how hard you fall. An incredibly important life lesson indeed, particularly for someone who is excessively self-critical. I’m so lucky, and I am thankful for everything I have for every moment of every day. I know I am incredibly privileged and that so much of it is unearned, but I will do everything I possibly can to use them responsibly and do good things in the world.